I want another good day. Full of laughs, smiles, and prayers. Full of hope for the future.... and for the now. Full of LOVE for Christ, Salvation, Resurrection, REDEMPTION... For living fully with Christ in this life. Don't judge any other denomination for their "weird rituals" For they are doing the best with what they've... Continue Reading →
That’s all I knew
I am not a fool I know what this is Even if I believe it I’m not ready to say it out loud. I spent how long freeing myself from indoctrination. Believing that all others were wrong— Going to hell wrong, I refuse to believe that; I refuse to push my faith on anyone dead... Continue Reading →
When the Holy Spirit Knocks You Straight in the Face and Doesn’t Feel Bad About it
Y'all. Y'all. Something happened. Something marvelous, Unexplainable, Unbelievable, Undeservable. I met the Lord through the weirdest of things: Missionaries. Now I know, Isn't that their job? Maybe, yes, but When they knocked on my door and I said, "Sure come back!" I was really looking to expand my knowledge of different religions, To debunk their... Continue Reading →
fuck
Talked to the case manager today Sounds like PHP is not going to be an option as I was assessed as needing residential. Now looking into some place south (?) of St. Louis MO And getting no where fast. They asked if I am still losing weight. I was 117 when she assessed me two... Continue Reading →
Well, Apparently, Me
**TWIGGER WARNING** (FOR THE FAINT OF HEART) I am FUCKING Miserable. I just ate 10 chicken nuggets and 5 fries after 2 apples (Which ED intended to be my supper) and I literally want to cry. But I can't. So I sit here with my brain swirling and fighting and conglomerating with all of... Continue Reading →
At Least I Don’t Have to Gain Weight
2 MONTHS I'VE WAITED 2 Fucking MONTHS for the insurance company and ERC to get their shit together and make a single case agreement so I can go to treatment and today, TO-FUCKING-DAY ERC calls to say that they cannot accept me as a patient because I have medicare as primary. News to ME FUCK... Continue Reading →
10/10 Don’t Recommend
Weighed myself last night and internally teared up. I had already decided to fast most of Saturday because I wasn't happy where I was, but I couldn't get out of eating at the wedding reception...believe me, I tried. So today I ate some breakfast and decided that was that. I'll just be miserable and fat,... Continue Reading →