Shhhhhh….ut Your Mouth

Who's up for some reduction of self in the new year? Me? Oh, Oh! Me! ME!!!!! Fuck me Fuxk my "self" I don't need to be heard Or talkOr matterOr eatOr exist..... I only live to please others Why do I think it's okay to defend myself? Why do I continually perpetuate fights in which... Continue Reading →

I’m Not Going to Go

I should be crying I know what I’m doing is wrong I’m only hurting myself By apologizing Accepting all blame But I can’t do anything right It’s all wrong Everything I do is wrong Why can’t I cry It’s numbness All my insides Black and dark and dank and moldy Not a ray of sunlight... Continue Reading →


Trigger Warning *****************I just want to fucking die. Kill. Myself. Over and out. Straight up. Too bad I don't believe in suicide. Too bad I'd rather live in perpetual torture. Too bad death is too easy of an out for me. Too bad ED says I must live. I just want to feel. All the... Continue Reading →

Life Perspective

Saw a homeless man walk by me today. Shuffling along, Lighter dangling in one hand. Pants holy and ripped to shreds Wearing a coat in unseasonable weather. And I thought, "Where does he come from? Where is he going?" And then I watched as he looked through a can of trash, Obviously hungry. And I... Continue Reading →

When ED Gets His Say…

‼‼<<<ENTER A BIG FAT TRIGGER WARNING RIGHT HERE>>>‼‼Okay, now that that is out of the way. Hi. This post is probably going to be all kinds of uber disordered, but these are my thoughts / my life and I need to get it out there. So I have really... and by really I mean REAAAALLLLLYYYYYY been struggling... Continue Reading →

What Do You Know

It has been brought to my attention that you know. Or, at least, you think you do. What do you know of me? Of who I was; who I am; who I will be? Your perceived notions are full of holes, Placed there by your dislike, nay, your hate of me. What have I done... Continue Reading →

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