Talked to the case manager today
Sounds like PHP is not going to be an option as I was assessed as needing residential.
Now looking into some place south (?) of St. Louis MO
And getting no where fast.
They asked if I am still losing weight.
I was 117 when she assessed me two months ago.
Now I’m 114-116 on any given day
So not the right direction she says
I might as well lose all the weight I can if they are going to put me in a higher level of care
Might as well look like the typical anorexic
Bones, sharp edges, sad eyes, languid complexion
A shell of her former self
Of her former glory
of her former beauty
if she ever had it
cuz she doesn’t believe that she did
just a shell of nothingness
existing to please other people
to give into other people’s whims
I have to lose weight now
IT isn’t even a well maybe anymore
I have to get down to the acceptable “Sick enough” weight
so I can deserve – get the treatment I need and wanted two months ago