Finally. I’m free. And it terrifies me. …… “Your eating disorder will get loud.” they said. “What are you going to do to not give in?” they… Read more “Freedom and a Side of Coffee”
I’m Not Going to Go
I should be crying I know what I’m doing is wrong I’m only hurting myself By apologizing Accepting all blame But I can’t do anything right It’s… Read more “I’m Not Going to Go”
Numb
Trigger Warning ***************** I just want to fucking die. Kill. Myself. Over and out. Straight up. Too bad I don’t believe in suicide. Too bad I’d rather… Read more “Numb”
Life Perspective
Saw a homeless man walk by me today. Shuffling along, Lighter dangling in one hand. Pants holy and ripped to shreds Wearing a coat in unseasonable weather.… Read more “Life Perspective”
With Every Step You Take…
🎵 I’ll be good I’ll be good And I’ll love the world like I should I’ll be good I’ll be good For all of the times that I… Read more “With Every Step You Take…”
Day 3: Fallen Angel
Completing by force (Ed’s force). Skinny bitches in shorts. So triggering to see leg tendons. Going to crack sooner this time, I think. I almost cry every… Read more “Day 3: Fallen Angel”
Disordered Eating Thoughts and Treatment “Fun”
Thoughts: Purge. Lax. Purge. Lax. Restrict. Purge. Wait. No lax until you’re constipated. Make it miserable. Make you miserable. Completed 3 meals. In a Row. Like some… Read more “Disordered Eating Thoughts and Treatment “Fun””
