For most of my life I have believed in Christ and The Lord. I fell away in my late teens and early 20′s, but He brought me back to Him.
Six and a half years ago I found a church to call home. Three and a half years ago I dedicated myself to that church and became a member.
I did not know then that I had mental issues. It is such a struggle for me to keep my way with the church clean when I am ill.
There is NOTHING I want more than to serve Christ and to go to Heaven; To be His child. But when I become ill I find my mind becoming a spiritual death trap and the devil uses that against me every chance he gets.
I often wonder why this illness has been brought to my attention–I know, I know– Who am I to question His ways? But I think there must be a good reason for it…
To humble my proud spirit? To help me see His influence in my life more clearly? To teach me patience and longsuffering? Definitely longsuffering; and maybe even just a little, to let His light shine through me….
The important aspect of all this is that you are back in His loving arms. The road isn’t isn’t – it’s three steps forward and one step back but always rememver you are still traveling forward. With God holding your hand, you’ll make it – even through the dark times. God bless.
Thank you so much. I love your thought about continuing to move forward. I often forget to look at that aspect of things. I think the devil gets me stuck at where I haven’t moved forward and I know I’m not alone in that. I hope others can see that as well in themselves. We all need to be reminded of the progress we have made no matter how great or small. :) Thank you for the encouragement and the smiles. xx
I am so glad my humble words encouraged you and just wanted to come back and apologize for all the typos. (and I meant: the road isn’t ‘easy’) Thank goodness you got the gist of the message though. My, my . . . so grateful that we as Christians, aren’t perfect, just forgiven. :)
(((hugs)))
xx :):)